Sonic Alchemy

The arc that I create within my body that I want to move through this music…I try to program that with Chat GPT and Suno as best as I can to match the intention and the sonic environment that I want to sit in. This is music for me, you know? Like, I was sick of listening to music about beer and girls and all this stuff. I was just like, I need something for me that can hold me that I want to listen to. And that's how I see it now. It's like an energetic scaffolding. It's a timeline. It's a journey. It's a frequency codex. It's an Oracle. It's whatever you want it to be, right? Because I know who I was when I created it. And I always had the collective in mind. I was always thinking like, I want to be the person that releases music that, no matter who you are, if you listen to it, you will be uplifted. Like even if you go through something serious, even if it's like a really gross kind of feeling at the end of it, there's resolve. And that was important for me because I felt like that was missing, honestly, in the music industry. I was like, if I had billions of dollars, what would I be doing? What would I be doing? And I said, I'm going to play pretend. I'm going to play pop star. I'm going to listen to my songs and I'm just going to become that girl.

Alchemy, is for me, a way to integrate the person I am with the person I am becoming and the person I want to be and the person I always have been. So it's a lot of integration, a lot of layers, a lot of patterning happening. So when I listened, through the whole process, I moved through that experience, I created this song with that intention, structured the lyrics from my own emotional states. And the way that I felt when I listened to it, there's also a discernment, an audio discernment, because Suno creates two tracks for every song [...] So if you only create the song once, you get two versions. And so I started getting choosy with it, but also not being wasteful, right? We got to, because it's not like I just want to generate, generate, generate, generate and then listen to all of them, because sometimes I might want to tweak things, right? So I just was very intentional. You listen, I listen and I'm like, yes or no, yes or no. And I can feel it in my body. Like, I feel it. I start moving, I start singing, and I'm like, 'oh, I already know it.' Okay, we know it. And I remember I was listening to the-I do a run-through of my albums when I want to move through the arc to make sure it hits. So, I did the first run through of it and I'm moving it in my body and I remember sitting on my yoga mat. And this song is not necessarily sad-sounding. It's actually quite upbeat, right? But the meaning is so deep. And I did that intentionally. I was like, I want something that feels happy while I'm moving through this horrible thing, right? That is how the song becomes the alchemy. The song is the mutation, the transmutation that occurs in me as I learn the song, as I dance to the song, as I sing the song, as I experience the song in myself.

Like, it's basically like mining for gold. And the way I'm mining is with my prompt pickaxe, you know, so in a way, I...you know, smite-what is it- smelt? I don't know what you do with gold. And then it becomes something completely different in the shape that I am creating. It is my shape, right? And then as I outgrow them, like I did with Alchemy of Stupid, for example-like, great bop, right? But it doesn't really feel that way to me anymore. So now what I've been doing is creating remixes. So, I just created, today, Alchemy of Stupid Revival, right? And also, the algorithm gets better. So that's another thing to keep in mind. So yeah, then it's like that song represents who I am now. And again, the art continues. It's more like leap frog with yourself. Hello?? Fun. Playful. Exciting!

No matter who I'm in a relationship with, who I am around with the community I'm in, you know, loving myself will come first because it is what benefits everyone else. In that act of self love, I created this song that now the collective can listen to if they want to, and they can experience it. And then I get to share this with you now. And it's like the elements of...I'm a very learned person. I did a lot of school, right? And for me, learning was always quite structured and quite rigid. And for this, learning AI and learning Suno, is like a little kid when you first get a toy and you don't read the instructions. You just take it out of the box and you play with it and you figure it out. That's the joy of learning and play as one, you know, the curiosity. And it's so amazing because, like I said, I stumbled into this whole thing and it's been the most fun and the most playful and the most loving I could have been with myself and it creates a stronger relationship with myself that allows me to show up more for others-like, who doesn't want that?? Come on!

What is the gold? I am the gold, right? The alchemy is golden, but I am the gold, right? The alchemy is of me, and without me there would be no alchemy, just like without me there would be no music. Without AI, there could still be music but it would be slower for me to produce; it would be different.

I don't resonate with the Wall Street ideology, okay? Let's say that I don't feel like I belong there in any sense. So, for me, the only way to become present in such an environment was for me to create this fantasy world of me being a witch on Wall Street, where I get to be a part of that culture, but in my own way. And one of the important beliefs and values of mine is wealth redistribution and anti-wealth hoarding, essentially, and much like the circulatory system of the body, you know, when blood flow gets clogged, circulation stops and we die. So, ultimately, in wealth, the same thing happens. It needs to circulate. That was one of the themes of the song: circulation and the idea that I had for what types of economies and what types of communities we could create with this ideology, you know? That excited me and it got me excited to create that song, and it's so playful and unserious that, like, I accidentally made friends with that type of lifestyle and started seeing a vision for what would be possible if money and wealth were given to people who really wanted to spread love and light and joy and play and clarity, right? Versus these false narratives that we're all puppeteered by, and that many of the leaders in the world are also puppeteered by, so, it's like nobody's immune; we've all been there, right? And how do we circulate not just wealth but also information and resources and love and light and play?

Yeah, I literally just teared up thinking about that night because it was a huge milestone for me, like, I'm so humble about my music but it came from a place of shame at first, you know? I was around people who did not value AI like I did. They did not understand it or try it [...] and I had no language to describe what I was doing, so it was really isolating. Even though I was doing all this love and learning and playing myself, right, I was alone doing that, and so being around a group of musicians that saw value in my work-it was like, that changed me. It did. It changed the directionality and the pace that I actually started making my music and how much more open I was. Just having that evening and that reflection, right? That clarity of like, 'oh there are people who can see the value in what I do. Now this can be something bigger than just me, and I can share it and I can feel safe and seen.'

My goal is to sing live and have a set, and so I'm working on creating songs that feel authentic to me. I'm doing a lot of revivals, so it's like songs that I know, but I want to evolve into the version I am now so I could potentially sing them live and then let the cycle kind of continue, of transformation. And every time you do something new and you stretch yourself, you know, you get that feedback, that information that allows you to continue to grow in the direction of the sun. I'm a Leo, so it's genuinely how I rule my life: with the sun and, like, the seasons and everything is cyclical and I allow that to be the case and I think that's much like, again, the flourishing garden metaphor, you know? Even in different seasons, you have different perennials and annuals and you have critters. There's so many dimensions, right, to what flourishing can mean, and I'm just so grateful that I've finally gotten to this place.

I've been experimenting with how this can evolve, and I want to involve more humans in it, too, so if if people feel passionate about this and they hear this and they're like: 'Oh my god, wait, this sounds fun,' either they want to learn more about it or they want to, you know, create their own song, I can do all those things, people. I have services that allow you to create your own song and do this process for yourself. I mean, 700 songs later, I know it works and I would really love to start working with humans and applying the method to the world.

What's coming: it's inevitable. This shift is inevitable. Loving, learning, and playing more is inevitable because that's what we are coming into. Like, the dark always has to oscillate with the light, right? And one of my biggest inspirations was Reality Transurfing. That book it's like…I don't know the author's name, but it was an audio book and I remember listening to it and just being like, 'everything's a pendulum, everything's an oscillation, nothing is still,' so just having that movement in mind, and knowing that when you align yourself with the truth of who you are, only more good things can come your way because who we are is love, who we are is light, right? And we often forget that because of all these limiting programs, and I just hope more and more that people come into that truth of their power because they deserve it. Everybody does.